Everyday longer is a good day....

We've been in and out of Labor and Delivery with this little one so much that sometimes I start to feel discouraged. Almost constant contraction cramping, that sometimes because severe contractions. It's an incredibly frustrating feeling, driving in 30 minutes, sitting in triage for 30-90 minutes or more, then the 3o minute drive back home. I know it's better to go in and get things checked out but it's irritating too.

I know it sounds horrible, but sometimes I wish she'd just come already so I wouldn't feel like such a fool going in and having them send me home because we aren't laboring. The one time we were they gave me two shots of Tributalene and got labor to stop and sent me home. I know it's important for her to stay put as long as possible, and I am so grateful we've made it as far as we have, but it's frustrating knowing there is nothing I can do to stop the contractions we're already having.

The rest is just as irritating sometimes as well. I miss rough housing around with my Bubba, and going on walks, and doing things around the house. It's even put a dent in my crafting so I am limited to what I can do to relax. I keep reminding myself that everyday longer is a good day, I know that it is, and if we can make it even 2-4 weeks longer she'll be healthier and stronger than she is now.

To keep my mind busy I've started doing a parenting devotional. It's really nice, and I'm finding a lot of the verses to study are things I need to hear and keep in mind right now. I am also so grateful to my husband who is doing a great job of reminding me that taking care of me and baby is more important than anything else right now. I can see how concerned he is about the situation, and how he's just as frustrated with things as I am, but he keeps me calm and reminds me that at the end of this we'll have a beautiful baby girl, who is more than worth all of the struggle.

Until then I continue to take it one day at a time, and I breathe, and I pray, because that's all I can do. And that's enough.