I need to organize my organizing....

I have been making pretty good change in the house in preparation for our LO. I know I have been getting things accomplished. Unfortunately the house is still at that point where you don't feel like anything you do is making any kind of difference. It really sucks. Especially since I know there is only so much I can do alone. I really don't want to call in reinforcements. It's stubborn, I know it is, but in my mind help comes with judgment and loss of control. It's happened before when I've accepted help and I just feel like asking now is going to ruin all the hard work I've put into things.

At the same time I feel like I'm not being realistic about how I'm getting things done. In the worst case scenario we have 2 months until our baby girl arrives to join our family, at best 3, and that isn't as much time as I'd like it to be. I think I've gotten myself stuck in a place where I need to just take a breath and figure out what is healthiest for me (and baby) and just let the rest go. It doesn't seem to matter who asks me if I need help I am determined to be stubborn and do it myself. A lot of that stems from the reactions I get from people who want to help, some are genuinely wanting to help out, and others make derogatory comments about how they will come help because they know I can't do it, or because they know I've never been very successful with organizing. And that kills me. All it does is make me feel more determined to do things myself.

I'm getting there. I know I am, I just need to take it one day at a time, one room at a time, one moment at a time. And I need to remember that I am doing the best I can, and that I can accomplish this.

One room at a time, and maintain the work done, don't slip, keep it up!

Here we go, off to work while Bubba sleeps. Wish me luck all. Once things start to come together I'll be posting pictures of changes and progress.

Until next time!